Over the course of my 30 years on this earth, I'm realizing that being true to myself is more and more important.
And that's all that it really comes down to for me. I am so tired of faking appearances, pleasing others at my expense, and being taken advantage of as a result of that.
I am pretty fierce. I say what I think...more than I should. I do what I say I'll do. I will give my Dad credit for that aspect of my personality. But, at the same time, I want so badly just to take care of everyone around me. I want to make everything right for them even if it hurts me. {That's where my Mom's genetics come in, I guess.}
It's tough sometimes.
But, my bullheadedness usually ends up out in front. Because as much as I want everything to be "ok", I don't fuck around. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. And I ain't about that. I'm not about being wrong. {Ask my boyfriend}.
In the most recent parts of my life, it has become the end-er of a lot of different types of relationships. Romantic, The close-to-your-heart ones, and even just common acquaintances.
And that is ok. Although, making those decisions are hard, and the conversations are even harder. I know that I am laying it all out on the table. I am being true to myself. To the striking differences in my personality. To my head and my heart.
Although, my circle may be small, it is filled with the very best of people. It's better that way. That's all that I need. We often get caught up in how many people we have around us rather than the quality. It doesn't matter how many connections you have, or what they can do for you, but rather what they mean to you.
This is probably weird, slightly ranty, odd, and may not make a lot of sense. But, again, that's just the way that I am and I do not have any apologies for it.
In other news, the Super Bowl was everything that I wanted it to be. Tom Brady is a legend! {Insert heart eyes here}Lady Gaga's performance was straight-up amazing. So, I leave you with this because I've been listening to it relentlessly for the past couple weeks, and maybe it's even the inspiration for this post. I don't know. But, I love it all the same.
And that's all that it really comes down to for me. I am so tired of faking appearances, pleasing others at my expense, and being taken advantage of as a result of that.
I am pretty fierce. I say what I think...more than I should. I do what I say I'll do. I will give my Dad credit for that aspect of my personality. But, at the same time, I want so badly just to take care of everyone around me. I want to make everything right for them even if it hurts me. {That's where my Mom's genetics come in, I guess.}
It's tough sometimes.
But, my bullheadedness usually ends up out in front. Because as much as I want everything to be "ok", I don't fuck around. Fool me once, shame on you. Fool me twice, shame on me. And I ain't about that. I'm not about being wrong. {Ask my boyfriend}.
In the most recent parts of my life, it has become the end-er of a lot of different types of relationships. Romantic, The close-to-your-heart ones, and even just common acquaintances.
And that is ok. Although, making those decisions are hard, and the conversations are even harder. I know that I am laying it all out on the table. I am being true to myself. To the striking differences in my personality. To my head and my heart.
Although, my circle may be small, it is filled with the very best of people. It's better that way. That's all that I need. We often get caught up in how many people we have around us rather than the quality. It doesn't matter how many connections you have, or what they can do for you, but rather what they mean to you.
This is probably weird, slightly ranty, odd, and may not make a lot of sense. But, again, that's just the way that I am and I do not have any apologies for it.
In other news, the Super Bowl was everything that I wanted it to be. Tom Brady is a legend! {Insert heart eyes here}Lady Gaga's performance was straight-up amazing. So, I leave you with this because I've been listening to it relentlessly for the past couple weeks, and maybe it's even the inspiration for this post. I don't know. But, I love it all the same.
Sometimes, as much as you want to make things better, you can't. And you just have to walk away.
-Stef
